deja vu | #8? | Oct, 15, 2023

 And thus begins the quarter...

I am labeling this #8 because I have an unpublished #7 about my trip to japan that I will likely not finish in the mean time because I do not have the willpower to write elegantly right now.

I must say though, I finally cut my nails from japan and they are still hanging on strong going for about 5-6 weeks now. I left my ring finger in tact bc it has a special design, but it keeps fucking with my typing :/

This blog is insane fodder for people who are stalking me and don't know me very well, because now you do! 

It is quite jarring when you realize that not everyone else's life is dictated by the politics of a university department and the weird geopolitics of individual dorms and cohorts. The first years have trickled in, and it is quite funny how each year has such a distinct flavor of people. Synestesia going crazy because right now I'm thinking a warm yellow for this new cohort, a nice teal/blue for my cohort, and a grey-purple for the cohort above me. 

That aside, the first few weeks of the quarter have just been a whirlwind of drinking, bonding, slight drama, reconnection, and rediscovery? Really trying to tune into my own needs and interests and prioritize those over work. Now that research is playing a bigger role in my day-to-day, I'm hoping I will see more consistency in my schedule and lifestyle. I want to continue elements of my summer lifestyle with work and gym, just squeezing in psets when necessary...

I currently have mixed feelings about partying/going out. I'm convinced that 72% of the time, most people go out in order to have an excuse to pursue a person of interest. There are of course exceptions, however, it becomes exponentially less interesting if there isn't anyone to court. Fomo is a bitch though, and so am I. 

Research Update: An insane last minute journey has finally led me to a brand spankin new lab. The projects are very poorly defined but now it is time for me to be a big girl and do robotics without having my hand held :)! This was my biggest fear last year, and I must say it is still scary. Hoping my co-advisor will be able to help with putting terminology to knowledge. I'm excited for the project (but I really don't want to build anything from scratch I just want a system to upload my code to).

Lifting Update: Ya girl finally deadlifted 225 today :)!! We try it for reps tomorrow lfg. I was gonna quit Nsuns, but honestly I might stick with it for a little longer. Hamstrings have never felt this good. This is making me realize I literally never trained hamstrings in the past lmfao. 

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