a corn kernel's contemplations

Grant application season got me stressin, but writing is a nice break from non-stop coding and the dark abyss that is staring at VS Code for hours on end. Writing in single-column format is significantly less satisfying than writing in double column papers. Huge IEEE format fan.  I am extremely excited for Halloween since my Yor costume just came in >:) I would have loved making it myself, but unfortunately I do have (vague) priorities.  Reigniting my Hinge and Bumble has been a super... interesting journey. Honestly I am not in the relationship phase of my life yet, so just talking to people has refined my view of what it means for me to be in a good relationship. Maybe I'll list some criteria here that I have developed over the past few days, weeks, months, and years. In no particular order, aside from generally being a respectful and good human: Is a nerd about something, anything... I have so many hyperfixations about random topics, if someone else cannot contribute to ...

  And thus begins the quarter... I am labeling this #8 because I have an unpublished #7 about my trip to japan that I will likely not finish in the mean time because I do not have the willpower to write elegantly right now. I must say though, I finally cut my nails from japan and they are still hanging on strong going for about 5-6 weeks now. I left my ring finger in tact bc it has a special design, but it keeps fucking with my typing :/ This blog is insane fodder for people who are stalking me and don't know me very well, because now you do!  It is quite jarring when you realize that not everyone else's life is dictated by the politics of a university department and the weird geopolitics of individual dorms and cohorts. The first years have trickled in, and it is quite funny how each year has such a distinct flavor of people. Synestesia going crazy because right now I'm thinking a warm yellow for this new cohort, a nice teal/blue for my cohort, and a grey-purple for the co...