bullseye | #6 | August 30, 2023

Currently in a Carhartt Jacket phase. My entire search history is second-hand Carhartt Jacket sales. Overconsumption is our devil, and I am an advocate >:) (jk please stop buying things you do not need, yes you). August is the month for pointless drives, late night walks (and scaring yourself), wine nights, and deadlift PRs apparently.

Heading to Japan in literally 4-ish days?? This snuck up on me big time since I've just been hyperfixating on research. Rambling on a keyboard feels pleasantly familiar, this time I'm actually using my mechanical keyboard, in hopes that I will actually start my final summer research report sooner rather than later. 

Currently also reconnecting with old and new friends, and indulging in endless conversations about everything and nothing. I've had a crazy range of conversations in the past 2 weeks. We often surround ourselves with a bubble of like-minded people, but how can we only choose one flavor of life to live?

I think I'm very clearly seeing the transition into "adult" friendships, and it's kinda jarring. My mom used to tell me that grown-ups always have a lot on their mind and are constantly busy, and I never understood why. Life is pretty straightfoward: wake up, go to school, roleplay Warriors, sleep, profit. I still don't know when my mind became so busy, but I imagine it happened gradually. 


Fig 1: I'm goated

Research Update: We are nearing the very end of this summer! Crafting a story and wrapping things up. Making a final presentation is very rewarding, but also a bit nervewracking. Procrastination is a bitch. Feeling much more connected with my lab mates after a lab dinner and going to a shooting range (??) with them. Turns out I'm pretty good at this, probably bc of archery. I wanna go again

Lifting Update: Started Nsuns, but I think it might be too much volume. I don't wanna injure myself, but I also do want to get huge... I think I got a 225lb deadlift in me, but I'm also scared to attempt it because it would definitely be an ego lift LOL

Art Tabling Update: N/A :(

Currently-ing: Reading Crime & Punishment, watching Peaky Blinders, digging through Goodwill donation piles, stressin'

Also been tracking my sleep...and within the span of 2 weeks I have slept anywhere from 4 to 14 hrs a night. Consistency is not my forte. 

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